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::Author::  Name::The Catapillar From::Houston, Texas My cacoon has begun to shed and I can see a glimps of the butterfly. I had Rny Gastric Bypass on 12/21/05 and these are my chroniclings... Weight Stats: Begining/Current/Goal 283/187/140 Butterfly Image from: http://www.tropicaldaystar.com View my complete 
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Tuesday, January 31, 2006 A MUST READ There is a new Renter in town and I know you need to take a look. These are the writings and journallings of a very talented author. Go ahead... you know you want to... give him a click and tell him The Catapillar sent 'cha.  
Ramblings from Sleep Deprivation…  I woke up this morning at 7:30 am. Having to go back to work tonight for my first night on in 5 days kind of worried me. I know I needed to get some sleep but that was just not going to happen today. Don’t get me wrong I didn’t sleep well and I tried to nap twice once in the early afternoon and once when around 7pm. I was unsuccessful on both attempts. I made it to work on time (which was quite abnormal) and am slowly drifting. I cant have caffeine (I could but I am barley getting the water I need as is). So I am stuck here, trying not to fall into a deep restful sleep in this cold hard room that I call my job. That is where you come in. I decided to write about a lot of the things I have been thinking about over the past week. So here goes… … First, I have been very concerned about stretching my po  uch. I will be adding soft foods into my diet on Wednesday and have had a couple of things that could be considered soft foods this weekend. Not much but enough to get me a bit worried. It feels like I have been eating more at each sitting and I don’t like it at all. I do not want to stretch anything and stop loosing weight. I have weighed in (even though it’s not official until Wednesday) and nothing has come off. I have been expecting a plateau (as stated in my last post) but that doesn’t mean I really want it to happen. I know I should be walking more than I do and that is going to change. My 6wk check up is on Wednesday and I hope I am on par with what the Dr. expects. So now I sit in worry. Wondering if I have messed anything up and praying I didn’t… … Second, my son is getting so tall. He is only 12 and is already taller than me by almost an inch (that’s not saying much I am only 5”4’) and I just had to buy him new shoes in a size 12 that’s right 12. His feet are huge. If humans are anything like dogs and you can judge the size of the man by his paws (hehe) then my boy is going to be one huge guy…. He has to get it from his fathers’ side as on my side we are nothing but a bunch of short Italians. Gosh they grow so fast…… Third, I want to go to bed… Z Z Z Z Z Z Z Sleep at work pic from http://members.tripod.com/~catladie
Well, It seems like I have been slacking in my blogging... My mom is moving so I went to her house to help pack and just some of lifes other silly things. I did weigh on wednesday though and the results are...  ... 5 more pounds gone forever!!! I am now at 235. This is a grand total of 48 lbs gone. This is where I was prior to leaving California. I gained all of this in the last three years. I wonder if a platue is due. We shall see..... Isnt it AWESOME!!! When I look at the scale even if it doesnt move in a couple of days I know that there is still a light at the end of this tunnel. I will be me again :) this time it's the truth.
One Month Pics Howdy, Sorry for the delay in getting these posted. The lighting is pretty bad and the battery for the camera was dieing so I got what I could. Next month they well be much better.    
I have a brand new renter and wanted everyone to click on her thumbnail and check out her blog. It is beautiful and interesting. Great combo if creativity and tech. Go ahead now give her a click. Tell her The Catapillar Sent 'cha.
A Photo Blog Howdy Everyone in Blogger Land,  I have created a blog just for the photo process of this journey. I will post lots of pics there :) I hope you stop by and see. :) Http://shrinkingbeauty.blogspot.comImage from:http://www.antique-art.com.au/
Official Weigh In - Week Four Stepping on the scale today I was pretty worried that my quick loss had come to a slow. I live with that fear daily. I want to do this right and I want to have excellent results and have them last. Well, I was quite supprised.  43 POUNDS GONE FOREVER I was shocked and amazed to see that much gone. That is 9 pounds more that last week. Saturday will be my surgery anniversary. I will post the coveted one month pics then. I go back to the Doc on Feb 1 and cant wait. I achieved the 40 lbs I wanted to loose before the Doctors appointment. I will be able to eat a scrambled egg... It sounds so good. Yippeeeeee! 283/240/145 Image from: http://www.aphroditewomenshealth.com/
 Sitting here alone in my office waiting for someone to call and tell me there is a problem leaves so much time to think. So I have been thinking a lot about the differences between quitting smoking and loosing weight. I quit smoking November 1st 2004. Aside from a couple of drags off of someone else’s cigarette a few times the following two days I have not had a cigarette since. Now I say that like it was easy… well let me tell you that was one of the most painful and hardest things I have ever done. I went through many emotions and was pretty difficult to live with for quite a while. I still have issues to this day about wanting to smoke. My son and friends were very supportive and didn’t give me much trouble when I would give them attitude either. They are great. Now the issue of loosing weight. I have been on many diets over the last decade. Some would have some effect and the weight would come off some would just not work at all but either way I would not only put the weight back on it would come back in uglier places and there would be more then what left in the first place. I finally decided to have the gastric bypass surgery and it happed as some of you may know on 12/21/05.  Ok, let’s compare the two. As stated above quitting smoking was very difficult. Loosing weight was even more difficult and I have come to a conclusion. Maybe some of you have already found this out but for me it is pretty new. When you quit smoking you have the option to never take smoke into your body again. You can cut that off without actually dieing as a result. But when you begin a journey to loose weight you cant just stop eating… that can kill you as it has many people in the world voluntary or not. Most of you know how disheartening it is to loose some weight and have it come right back. A lot of us have done this for years. So many people have opted for Surgery. Myself included. Did I cheat? Was it the easy way out? To some the answer may be yes. But this has been pretty tough so far. I still have to cut my portions (with some help) I have to make good food choices, and I have to exercise (at least walk daily) the motivation for that is quite nil at the moment. But I look at it like this. So if I cheated (in your eyes) but I think cheating a diet is far better than risking the death of a morbidly obese individual. Just had to rant abit. Hey, want a shameless plug? Ok, I just added the adsence from blogger. Just give it a short click. You don’t have to say. I get paid if you click. :) Images from: http://www.999today.com/ & http://www.vpul.upenn.edu/
I found this on someones blog. Unfortunatly I cannot remember who's but I wanted to share. If you are the person who posted this or you know who did please let me know so I can give credit to them. Anyway, check out this article on Obesity and the Brain. Pretty interesting reading. http://www.jsonline.com/alive/news/jul03/152605.asp
Soup... Soup... Soup... + a Recipe When is it going to end? The thought of eating cream of whatever soup from a can makes me sick to my stomach. I make it occasionally but really only take a couple of bites because I am not into being physically ill. So the dilemma… It is much easier to buy canned soups and eat them then make it myself but there is no way. I can't eat any more of it. So I made this awesome soup called Avocado and green chili soup given to me by a friend. It is AWESOME. Now this is the soup I can eat... The recipe is as follows Avocado and Green Chile Soup Avocados and chilies team up to give this soup its color and flavor. I added to this cilantro and it made it that much more wonderful. Ingredients:
Renting Some Space Howdy everyone! There is a new renter in town and she is The Rock Bitch Her blog is pretty funny and has a great look. You must check out her blog. So click on the her pick over on the right and make sure to tell her that The Catapillar sent you. I had so many bids this time it was so hard to pick. If you bid please bid again I am sure we will get there. I liked all of the choises but Blogexplosion only lets us run one rent campaign at a time. So I picked 5 additional blogs that I also liked a lot and put their links below. So go by and check them out. The Bloggin' Bizatch Kimee's Daily Thoughts & Sporadic Nonsense My Corner of the Web In the Third Person Scooter McGavin's 9th Green
Official Weigh Day - Week Three  It's Official!! Current Weight loss to day is
What a discovery!!! Well, I was digging through the cloths in my closet and I came across a pair of jeans that I have not been able to wear for more than a year and GUESS WHAT!!!!! They Fit perfectly… This makes two pant sizes down in three weeks. Just when I begin to grow weary of this painful liquid diet something really cool happens and I think of the famous phrase… “Nothing tastes as good and Thin is going to feel” I am so excited!! By the way, unofficially I am down 30 lbs as of today. I will give you the official weight on Wednesday. Till then.
Those Pesky Food Demons  Well, today has been especially hard concerning food. The demons are off their break and are out in full force. I have been easily agitated and grumpy. Really today is the day I should lock myself in my room and not come out.Now don’t get me wrong. I don’t want to eat just anything. I would love to eat something healthy. I just want to have some solid food. A scrambled egg, some ground turkey, anything on my soft foods menu starting in February. Some grilled chicken and veggies would be nice too. Although when I pass the bad places (i.e. McDonalds, Jack -n- the Box) I want to turn in but I don’t want to eat what they have. I don’t know it is really quite disturbing. So I went to the grocery store to stock up on some things for work. I got some sugar free hot chocolate, 1% milk, cream soups and grits. These things are on my list so I won’t be stuck with just some double milk all night long. I just had one ounce of SF chocolate pudding and the demon seems to be subsiding now. Three more weeks to go until I can start eating soft foods. I look forward to those days. I know Dr. Naaman has us on liquids for 6 weeks for a reason. The longer I am on them the more I think it is because of the food demons. Maybe by the end of this I will have adjusted to the new way of eating (5 or 6 small meals a day) and I will transition back to food with grace. I trust the Dr knows what he is doing so I will continue my liquid diet and fight the demons one at a time. Image from: http://arania.kamiki.net/sabintpacontest.htm
There is a new renter in town and you should really check out her blog. I can’t tell you how hard it was to pick just one. I wanted to rent to all of the bidders. Infinitely Pie’s Blog is funny and creative. A great place to spend some time. Give her a click and let her know The Catapillar Sent ‘cha
I am a Renter I just rented a spot on Blogging Under Protests Blog site. It's pretty good. Swing by and check it out. Tell 'em The Catapillar Sent 'cha :)
My son and I have been discussing life changes. He wants to participate with me so we are on the same page. He is so cool. Here is a short breakdown of the changes we want to make:
So the research begins I will be spending lots of time finding good recipes to make at home. I am going to be doing lots of meal planning. (if you have some good recipes I'd love to trade with you)
Well, Yesterday was my first day back to work. It was alright but I work the midnight shift so when you are off for two and a half weeks you kind of get back on a daytime schedule. So I was up for at least 24 hours. I have a pretty cool job. It is pretty laid back and very slow paced on the midnight shift. Unless there is a shuttle in space. It is also not very physically challenging. It is nice to start getting back into routine although; I did like the not working and getting paid for it just a little. By the end of the two weeks I was going a bit stir crazy. God its good to be out of the house for a while.
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 What can I say My Mother, My Son and my Soul Sister (SS) have been so wonderful! My mother rented a hotel room near the hospital and we three went out to eat and to the hotel. She did that so we could be close by and not have to deal with rush hour traffic from Anyway, mom and ss were by my side the entire time (at least when they were allowed to be). SS moved me into her den afterwards and cared for me, made sure I had a shot glass of some kind of liquid every 15 minutes, gave me my medicine on time, emptied my drain and yes she even gave me a bath TWICE!!! She never complained one time. I can’t tell you guys enough how much she means to me (even when she isn’t taking care of me). On Christmas Eve my Wonderful Mother picked me up from SS’s house and we went to hers to spend Christmas. I figured SS needed a break anyway and she had a billion people coming over on Christmas. My mother was also a great care giver. Even though she herself isn’t in the best of health she made sure everything I needed was available to me.My 12 year old son is so awesome. He was helping me and My other angels take care of me. He would bring me water, put on my shoes (I couldn’t bend very well) and tie them and walk with me. He is such a great Kid. I love him so much!!!! God has blessed me with wonderful Angels the best I believe and I thank him every night for giving them to me.
Official Weigh Day - Week Two  I have picked Wednesday to be my official weekly weigh in. Mainly because my surgery was on Wednesday. So you wanna know what it is??? Drum roll please....
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