Some of the battles that I have been facing lately are pretty hard to deal with. They are as follows:

• Head Hunger vs. Real Hunger – Trying to discern the difference is a challenge to say the least. Your head sure can be demanding. I find it quite amazing that I am able to with stand the “eating” urges. Prior to surgery I would say “oh one bite wont hurt” and similar. Well at this point one bite could hurt a lot. Thank God for the tool.
• The Habit of Eating – I quit smoking in November of 04. I am pretty proud of the fact that I was actually able to kick it. And As I am working on kicking the Eating habit I realize that this is a very difficult thing to do. As much as it sound crazy it’s even harder than quitting smoking. At least with smoking you don’t have to partake. All you have to do is say no and it won’t kill you. As a matter of fact it’s better for you. But with eating… … … You can’t just quit that. It is required by nature that you eat and so it is in the control that the breakdown occurs.
  
  Also, my habit is to eat when I am out… If I am at home I don’t have as much of the problem. I will eat before I leave to ensure I don’t skip a meal and when I am out every restaurant I see I want to stop. Just out of habit. Well at least we know how I got here to begin with.
• Remembering to take my Vitamins – Wow learning a new habit can be difficult I have been remembering twice a day until yesterday. I didn’t even get one in today I was at my mothers and didn’t have them with me.
• Getting in all of my water – I feel like I drink and drink but I don’t think it is enough. I guess once I feel like I am going to float away I have had enough water :).
• Worry… Worry… Worry… – I have worried so much about eating too much when I feel full or about failing because the last thing in the world I want to do is fail and not doing it right and getting in all of my protein and so much more it is crazy…

Other wise dealing with my food demon seems to be the hardest and it is getting easier.

Posted by The Catapillar :: 10:51 PM :: 2 Comments:

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