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Saturday, April 29, 2006

Long Time no Blog

Howdy out there,

It sure has been pretty crazy these days. I have been pretty busy and unfortunately I have not blogged in a while. As for exercising I am still struggling with motivation but I am down to the 200 line on weight and its only a matter of a pound and I am in One-derland.

Everyone go by and check on Barb. She's back from a long absence because of some complications.


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Sunday, April 16, 2006

Trying to Stay Sane

My new renter is here! It’s been a while since I have had one. It’s always so hard to choose. I decided to have Trying to stay sane as my guest this week. I have been reading through her site off and on tonight and find it very intriguing. Her outlook on dealing with life and struggling with infertility are very well articulated and captivating. Stop on by and sit a spell. Take your shoes off… Tell her I sent ‘cha.

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Be the Butterfly is here: It’s a Double Feature

That’s Right, I am the lucky renter of two blogs My so called Ramblings & British in America . What a lucky girl am I. Both sites are very captivating. I suggest you stop on by and take a look see. Tell 'em I sent 'cha

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

13 Years Ago Today

My son was born at 505 am on Tuesday, April 13th, 1993.


He weighed 6lbs and 1oz and was 21 inches long, which is pretty good for a boy who was 6 weeks premature. He was ready for this world. I was 19. When I saw my beautiful son and held him for the first time I thought to myself how important he was. I was in awe of my ability to grow, nurture and sustain a life inside my body. I knew from the begining that He was destined for greatness.

He is more than just a baby boy to me, He is my angel, A suprise gift from God. My son gave me focus, desire, determination and hope. I have occationally thought about the different directions my life could have gone in and I always come back to my son. I wouldnt want it any other way. Besides, without him I would not have turned out so well.

He has blessed my life with joy, laughter, caos, tears, love and much more. There are no words that can express my love for him. None that could even come close. He has taught me and helped me grow as a woman and a mother.

He has made me a better person.
Happy Birthday Son, You are loved more than you could ever know!







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MEAN PEOPLE SUCK




Three days ago I am driving through the drive through at Sonic to get water. I couldn’t believe it but I did not have $0.43 in my car or purse so I had to use my check card. I figured instead of using my card for a miniscule amount of money I would order something else. So I ordered some cheese sticks (I know they are bad but I don’t do it very often and I only ate two of them).

No one was behind me when I ordered them at the window so I went ahead and did it. Meanwhile, someone in an old red mini Toyota truck pulls in and places an order. His order is complete before mine so the sonic lady brings him his order out the drive through door and he puts is car and reverse and begins to go around me. Just as he lines up with my passenger window he stops... honks his horn... and just as I look around he flips me the bird...

What the Hell was that??? I didn’t hold him up; he got his order when it was complete. The only thing I can think of was he was pissed he had to put his truck in reverse. He wasn’t even there when I placed an order at the window.

Today was going along just fine. I had tried on the sz 14 pants I was given last month and I was actually able to button and zip them without lying on the bed YIPPEEEEE! I'm feeling pretty good about myself after that. So I started working on unpacking my house and doing laundry.

So I am walking back from the laundry room in my apartments and it happened. Two jerks drove by in a champagne mini-van... yelled out the window "Hey Baby", I turned to look at them and they started laughing hysterically and drove off.

Now I have been subject to these kinds of things for years. I find it really is hurtful and totally unnecessary. I have never done that to anyone! It just kind of hit me hard today. After all, I had had that good moment earlier. Sometimes I think it’s not meant for me to feel good. Because every time I do or begin to something happens that really sucks.

So Just like SS said.... I have sent that negative energy back to the jack asses involved because I am not going to keep it. I just had to vent.



Thanks for listening (or reading)....
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Thursday, April 06, 2006

What is motivation?

Is it the desire, willingness or the act of achieving a goal? Let’s look at the definition from (dictionary.com).

mo.ti.va.tion - n. 1. a: The act or process of motivating. B: The state of being motivated. 2. Something that motivates; an inducement or incentive.

Ok so motivation is the ACT but that wasn’t very clear let’s get to the root of it.

mo.ti.vate - tr.v. To provide with an incentive; move to action; impel.

It’s apparent that the tool to motivate someone will differ from person to person. Now I need to find out what motivates me.

You may be asking yourself “what is it that The Catapillar needs to be motivated to do”… and that is a good question. You most likely have already gleamed what I need to be motivated to do from my last post. Just in case you haven’t read that one yet (or guessed) it’s the all powerful

Exercise!

This is where my motivation seriously lacks. So I have compiled a list of things that should be motivating me.

  1. The Scale
  2. Extra Skin
  3. My Energy
  4. Clothing fit
  5. Cost of plastic surgery
  6. My crush also works out at my gym
  7. Sex (or future sex that is)

This is a fairly large list for it not to be working already. What’s up with that? Why is my brain not working right?

It must be habit… I have had a habit of stagnant life style. You know how it is…with the extra weight your bones and heart have a harder time when you are moving a lot. Personally for me I had immense back and knee pain and it was so severe that it worked as a motivator not to move. I have often joked that in my mind I am a fitness nut I just couldn’t get up off the couch.

What is the best way to change a habit? I have heard that if you can do it for 15 days in a row non stop you will form a new habit. My Soul Sister (SS) has always said just work through it and get it done. Once you get through it you will find it becomes easier as it goes. She is very good at motivating herself that way. I have always kind of had a mind about me (that is pretty asinine I might add) when she starts with the “just do it” talk I get kind of frustrated and I go toward the opposite of what she is saying. I know your thinking “how stupid is that girl!” and to be perfectly honest… I have always known she was right; I just didn’t want to admit it.

So for my SS! Thanks for always trying to keep me motivated and living through my attitude without running in the other direction!

That’s it! I am just going to do it. NO more excuses! NO more whining! NO more procrastinating

Just like SS (and Nike) said: JUST DO IT!

I’m starting tomorrow.

Wish me luck! I’ll let you know


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Missing in Action

Wow, it seems as though I have been neglecting my blog. I guess in a lot of ways I have. I think I have figured out why. In some ways this blog and the people who read it keep me accountable for doing what I am supposed to be doing. Since I have been slacking on my exercising and my scale teeters back and forth in a 5lb range I feel like I am failing and It’s hard to kind of admit that.

I am still eating pretty healthy. I am not eating sugar or fried foods (with little exception) but I cannot get motivated to work out. I know this is going to play a part in weight loss and skin reduction. The scale moves between 205 and 210. My portion size is about a cup however sometimes I eat more than that. I don’t drink with my food except occasionally I will have a small sip if I have eaten something spicy. And I wait for at least 30 minutes after I eat to start drinking. Although for the most part its more like an hour. So I know that exercise is the catalyst on the weight thing.

Now I just need to get motivated!

P.S. I bought sz 16s yesterday!!!! That’s down from a sz 24/26!!!

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